I know it has been a while since I have posted anything on here. The Holidays are almost over. This is the first year that Ive spent Christmas away from Sam and the kids. I feel like I am missing so much. Am I even a part of their lives anymore? Am just the guy who they talk to on the computer? I missed my sons 1st birthday. Which sucks. Sam and I continue to argue about money issues. I just want this year to be over already. I hope that everything will go back to normal when I come back. Ultimately I just want Sam and the kids to be happy but at the same time I don't want them to be too happy with out me there. Does that make any sense? OK well I'm just venting now.
